Insomnia

Crying to a dark ceiling
The sound becomes an animal keening
Nothing can ever equal heartbreak like this
I ball the anguish into a fist

Anger is what I'll turn the utter hopelessness into
Anger is how I'll get through
Until the weight can be lifted again
Using that shield I will pretend

That I will not break down
Every time I remember you
Dates, and memories that mattered
Before the vein where the I.V rested, shattered
He bleeds in the hospital unknowing and unfeeling

God only gives us what we can handle
I only wish I could take up that mantel
Because I miss him so much every single day
More than anything I can put in words could convey
I don't think my family could ever handle this
Three months later and still reeling form deaths kiss.